by bubbabird85 on Thu May 03, 2007 9:52 am
Thank you all for all of your kind words. It was not my intent to shut any of you out... trust me, I knew that all of you would understand my pain and concern. You can understand the love I have for him because it is like the love that you have for all of your babies. It is just so hard to talk about. I am at the point where mentioning it begins a flow of tears that is just too hard to stop. I took Bubba in the shower with me this morning, and he was whistling and so happy, and it is just hard to immagine him not being here to sing his pretty little songs. I know he feels my grief...he has been such a good boy the past few days.
It is so hard to be positive... but I will try. I was relatively sure that everything would be okay too... he is such an energetic, strong, and happy (though often bratty) little birdie... Oddly, I am usually optamistic, and I am also pretty religious, so I am trying, but it is so hard to think of. I will give him lots of hugs and scritches from all of you. We both appreciate your support.
Sorry to make you so anxious Rosie's mom, but it really was so hard for me to deal with yesterday. I didn't find out until later in the day anyway, but I am sorry I didn't tell you all earlier, and sorry to make you worry.
Thank you for all of the advice too MFids, I will talk to my vet about the different things you recommended. Yesterday when I picked up his meds, I picked up some Harrison's pellets from the vet's office. It is organic and colorless, but has some of the fillers you mentioned. Some of the other ingredients seem good though... yummy stuff he normally gets like millet, lentils, rice, peas, alfalfa, etc. It is wierd because it has some sea salt in it... strange... Bubba isn't very interested.
I was also reading about the website that Sam posted. I think I might ask the vet to x-ray bubba to see if he has any small tumors in case it is something like cancer. If it is cancer, a tumor can be sugically removed, but mom and dad don't seem to happy about that. We had a dog treated for cancer when I was younger, and things didn't end well. AFter $10,000 or so in treatment, she got an infection in her paw, and passed away... her vet said he wondered if the doctor treating her really found cancer or not... so mom and dad seem a bit sceptical and are worried abut the cost of surgery. For me this isn't a monetary thing... I will take student loans if I have to to pay for surgery, but I am of course, hoping it wouldn't come to that. Like humans, you weigh things... would the pain associated with surgery really outweigh another 10 years of life? The vet had also discussed the possability of liver biopsy with me, but said that it is really risky, and rather than actually "do" anything, it would more give me a piece of mind, so I would not be willing to put bubba through any of that for my own comfort. What are your thoughts?